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I've been on this fucking medicine that's destroying my hair, my liver, my stomach and my immune system for 3 months now. Today I am bleeding again. Seeing blood in the toilet fills me with this all hatred and shame towards myself and I don't know what to do. Is it my fault that I am feeling like this? probably not. Is it my responsibility to regulate my feelings and get back to life? yes but it just really really sucks and nobody get it I want to be able to eat a pomegranate and not bleed afterwards Ive stopped smoking and drinking, but what is the point if im still gonna feel like shit 95 percent of the time? If im not in pain im so tired i cant not fall asleep. if im awake im thinking of going back to sleep. and im just so fucking ashamed of existing like this my sister has a job, is getting interviews left and right and im just here i have no talent, no purpose, no plans. soon no place to live and no income Im a burden to my family and...